The blank space of Life

Some days it feels like I am off track, lost in space, not really there

The Silence

A couple of months ago I went on a silent retreat for 4 days, with one question "Who am I?". For 4 days, I asked myself the same question over and over and over again, until it lost its meaning - I became the question. Basically, the question got reduced to "I". 
It turned in to a philosophical dilemma, because all that was left was the question. I did not find any answers, just more questions. Like always, I question. everything. I seek progress, to see the other side, to understand what's behind the obvious .. And sometimes that leaves me hanging in limbo for a long time. I try to rationalize the in's and out's, the intangible and the obvious, the right's and wrong's - and I have also come to the Einstein conclusion that everything is relative. Relatively inconsistent, and that leaves a lot of room to ponder ..

So there I was, accepting the fact that I live in a constant question. "I" am, right there in the middle of "Who am I" and the answer .. That blank space where the question has left the mind before it answers "You are ..". The second the answer comes up the question resolves - it's no longer relevant, because, if you have the answer, there is no need for a question, or is there..? If everything is relative, the answers only existential right is in relation to the question. Without the question, you only get half of the answer. And I wonder ..

In the end, I had to accept that this is who I am, what humanity is, the question. 

Our human consciousness is curiosity, we live the question. 

So here I am, living as a consequence of a billion factors that had to meet, to make me - the blank space, or the perfect hybrid of Q&A = Awareness. And that, in essence, my friends, is humanity. Love is the energy that holds the universe together, the spiritual is what makes it aware of its existence. For some reason, that spiritual energy had to materialize as planet earth, with love driving life as we know it, and the human beings as conscious awareness. This leads me to the statement above "humanity is the question/awareness/curiosity".
We are not human beings having a spiritual experience; we are spiritual beings having a human experience - G. I. Gurdjieff

That's it - or is it?

That's it, but not all. It seems as we have forgotten the question and only live by the answers. If humanity is the answer, what is the question? For some reason the spiritual energy had to manifest itself into a physical awareness to .?? I'd like to know. 
These days it seems as our answers are predominantly being ruled by religion and capitalism. If we look to the media it seems as humanity is a destructive force of ego's that is willing to sacrifice all for .. what?  That leaves room for another question, for what? Apparently, this destructive force of ego's is being supported by something beyond our reach. I doubt we will ever know the answer to that, but live the consequences. The question is, what are the consequences of the blank space in between the Q&A? Is this "life"?

There I go again, of on my mental journey, into the blank oblivion ..

OK, OK, OK, OK
All I needed to know is, am I Ok? Is it OK to be me? Is it OK to live on a question alone? The awareness in me says "yes - that is the essence of life". The body says "no - we need to make money!", which is only fair. The physical manifestation wouldn't make much sense if I let it starve under a bush in the forest, the physical manifestation needs food and fun too ;-)

The difficulty lies not in solving problems but in identifying the questions

So the real dilemma is, is it OK to earn a living questioning life? Of course, it is.. lot's of people do because they studied and have great titles to their names. But here's the thing; they study answers and forget to question, in essence. Without the question, the answer is relatively weak.

Accepting the blank space

It is hard to live in the blank space for too long. The ego needs to be acknowledged by being able to give answers and possibly making money doing so. True artists produce questions and thrive in this, while floating in the blank space, without being able to give the answers. We, the audience, live the answers and feed them back to artist. True artists can survive the blank space for a lifetime, like David Bowie e.g. But most get beaten down by their egos. (That was an answer to something ;) However, I am not an artist, I am a question.

What are we?

I've been asking a lot of questions all my life, none were given, all were experienced. The fact of the matter is, I've come a long way to be who I am. I've had to make a million choices to be where I am now - just like you. Who you are in relation to me, is the question now that you read this. If I am me, who are you and what are "we"?
These past days I have spent asking myself "is it OK to be me?". Is it OK to ask people to go on this journey with me into the blank space, and I think it is. Does it make sense - hell yeah! It's the meaning of life. Come along!

- come -

25 Struggles Only ENFPs Will Understand (JTI)

I score high as an ENFP in the JTI test - and boy do I know of the struggles on the list in this article!


ENFPs are passion-driven ‘ideas’ people. They gain energy from interacting with the world around them, and become quickly excited over new possibilities. Though ENFPs loves being around people, they crave alone time much more than the average extrovert. ENFPs search for a deeper meaning in just about everything, and use their much-coveted alone time to decide how their experiences fit in with their system of core values. 

25 Struggles Only ENFPs Will Understand

To be Frank, it’s an exhausting personality to have. Here are a few struggles most ENFPs face.

| Thought Catalog

Let go of what you fear and love - Kirpus says

- Let go of what you fear and love -

you are much more than a social construct

Until there is surrender, unconscious role-playing constitutes a large part of human interaction. In surrender, you no longer need ego defenses and false masks. You become very simple, very real. “That’s dangerous,” says the ego. “You’ll get hurt. You’ll become vulnerable.” What the ego doesn’t know, of course, is that only through the letting go of resistance, through becoming “vulnerable,” can you discover your true and essential invulnerability. Now ask yourself, “who” just read that?

(Kirpus/E. Tolle)

Drop the leash!

Set your dog free - nobody deserves to be chained down! #coexist

Drop the leash

Relationships that are need-based

Relationships that are 'need-based' will encounter problems, because eventually you will realize that no other person can fulfill your needs.

Fastforward to 10:00 for quote.

Our precious pretence ..

That is so effin' true ..

International Events Fatique

Protests could disrupt Brazil's World Cup quest - Scolari | Reuters

Is it only me?

Is it only me or are you also starting to feel a bit disgusted with the major sports and cultural events of the world?

In year 2014 we had to endure a scandalous Winter OL in Russia - with major pollution problems to follow and hate crimes against gay people.
This summer we can watch Brazil spend enormous amounts of money on football - while it's population is suffering and the goverment commits heinous crimes against their weakest elements of society - the street children 

The ignorance and decadence is frightening!
It's getting more and more obvious that some people are having a luscious ball at the expense of the environment and population of the world. It seems as we have forgotten that we all live on the same planet and looking away doesn't solve the problems - and there is no one else to fix this mess but us.

Take it back!
But there is a peaceful way to protest: Take it back! Take it back to your neighborhood, play with your friends, boycott your idols who pray on these events. Remember what it was all about - socialising and having a good time on your own.

But it's just a thought. Never mind me.

UPDATE!

This post let me to voice my opinion, on a current danish radio program, about the FIFA World Cup. I love football, but I hate the bigotry.

The invited guests came from an academic background, including a woman who works with future developments. All, but one, treated the subjects as if major world events are holy cows that should not be challenged. I believe I voiced my opinion on the matter very well, but the edited interview only focused on the FIFA World Cup. Fair enough. 

• Link to audio podcast (spoken in danish) - hear me at 18:45

But think about this:

What if we could get 700 million viewers with a budget of billions of dollars for a two week world wide media event every second year - could we change the future, one event at the time? Would you watch?

I suggest taking it from the top:

• A common clean up campaign of the Great Pacific Garbage Patch
• A campaign for the leaders of the world to understand that our planet can not handle one more bomb dropped in the trees, one more sunken war ship or one more city burning. 

Co-exist with lions - The New Endangered Species?

Please watch this clip to the end
Humanity needs to learn how to co-exist with the rest of the planet. Unfortunately it's in our genes to destroy everything, for profit, until humanity itself is destroyed.

Mother earth says, co-exist humans - or don't exist at all.

Restore your faith in Humanity in 2 hours

This movie is about a world music project with great philosphy and music in it. We are one world!
Read the story behind the project: 1 Giant Leap http://www.1giantleap.tv/

Shiny happy people - have their shit together

Shiny happy people

*note

Good for them

I used to despise, but now I envy, people who don't need art in their life to be present or emotional stable. I thought that people who only need music to party or dance where spiritually poor, that they were missing out on the essence of the art in music. My prejudice tells me that they are either in some sort of bliss or ignorant. But now I understand that they are not constantly filling their minds with art, because they don't need to. For them, art is an emotional overload - too much emotional information. Good for them.

I understand that most people prefer music they know, music that is validated, music that is safe and social, so that they can focus on things that matter. Like balancing their accounts.. And I think to myself ' Those people must really have their shit together - how come they are not cool?'
Because they don't need to, they got their shit together(!)

Help me write part two 

*This is part one of a blog post that I am writing. Part two will be posted later. 

Apparently we don't speak the same language and we will probably never understand each other. But why?

I'd love to investigate this further, but i could use a little help here, so feel free to chime in and I'll keep you updated if I ever figure this one out. Until then, think about it, and help me figure this one out by posting your comments below.

Metal Me!

All I did was googeling 'Metal Me' and look what I found!

There are so many things in this picture, I don't know where to begin :-)

'Live fast, Die young' ..

The problem with 'Live fast, Die young' 
 - is that you survive.



Once divided...nothing left to subtract...
Some words when spoken...can't be taken back...
Walks on his own...with thoughts he can't help thinking...
Future's above...but in the past he's slow and sinking...
Caught a bolt 'a lightnin'...cursed the day he let it go...

Dont forget

What this season is all about..
Merry Xmas to all!

The Domesticated Lion from Zion

brutal honesty & condemnation

Condemnation
Tried
Here on the stand
With the book in my hand
And truth on my side

If you see purity
As immaturity
Well it's no surprise

Accusations
Lies
Hand me my sentence
I'll show no repentance
I'll suffer with pride

If for honesty
You want apologies
I don't sympathize
If for kindness
You substitute blindness
Please open your eyes

Maybe greed can be stopped

in generations..

The unpostable picture?

Janteloven for dummies

This picture says it all.

The Jante Law is a pattern of group behaviour towards individuals within Scandinavian communities, which negatively portrays and criticizes success and achievement as unworthy and inappropriate.

(Picture taken in Ikast, Denmark 2011)

Golden-Voiced Homeless Man

Scores Job Offers After Video Goes Viral

You gotta love this story
I for one would like to promote his gift to further his career.
Best of luck golden-voiced dude! - Kirpus Says

Nine Inch Nails you can't pull out!

Nine Inch Nails: Down In It (Remastered) from Nine Inch Nails on Vimeo.

One of the best albums from the decade. An eternal classic in my record collection.